Today, at 9:15, I have officially begun the journey toward become emotionally literate...you know, getting in touch with my feelings. YIKES!!! I've gone to shrinks before, tried to share with them how I feel about certain issues--MASSIVE FAILURE. I ended up being so mad about her prying into my life, that instead of feeling relieved, I was more annoyed than ever. My life--my business.
Focus for the day: Knowing my emotions
I went to bed, embarrassed. I had watched "Dancing with the Stars" and found my self putting my head down whenever an awkward situation or embarrassing moment occurred. Same thing happens when I'm in movies...Meet the Parents always makes me cringe. I hate watching people doing things that they'll regret in the morning, and when I see people making a fool out of themselves, in real-life or on TV, I feel so embarrassed. Thank God, I haven't had to put myself in any of those situations. It's weird though, I don't embarrass myself too easily. I can dance like a fool at Ricks, make stupid jokes that no one laughs about, stand up in public, and all in all do things that if I had seen on TV would make me cringe.
I am aware when embarrassment occurs. I know that I am embarrassed. I feel my cheeks turn red and put my head down. I know I'm uncomfortable. I suppose that in order to truly know my feelings though, I must need to know how to deal with it. Sure, the easiest option would be to stay away from reality shows that embarrass celebrities or movies full of awkward situation. But I don't think that's realistic, I LOVE MOVIES AND REALITY SHOWS. I just think I need to face it head on. Watch and learn and watch and deal. I feel bad for poor Kate Gosselin, looking so out of her element, but I have to remember, she put her self in that situation, her fault, not mine.
Mallory...I feel the exact same way. Whenever I see someone doing something embarrassing, I get embarrassed myself. Sometimes I even have to take myself out of the situation (like stop watching altogether).
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