Motivating myself...

Motivation: Seems to be what I've been lacking all semester. When I'm unmotivated in school, there's a name for it...Senioritis. When I'm unmotivated to discover and be accountable for my emotions, that's called...Impossible.

According to Family Links, in order to achieve our goals we must be able to harness our emotions. I must be able to put all my feelings into context if I want to succeed. Makes sense. I get it. If I want to succeed, I must be able to recognize my feelings, put them aside and then go for it. Of all the steps thus far, this seems to be the one I understand the most. It's the area in which I'm living with and dealing with now.

I'm graduating (CRAZY!). Things and assignments seem to be popping up left and right, and I'm struggling with the idea of actually getting it all done in the next five weeks. I'm trying to balance getting my school work done with enjoying myself, this is the only time in my life I will have the opportunities that I have to have fun and be with my friends, so I'm trying to enjoy it. There is just so much though. So much school work, so much work work, and so much other stuff. It's really overwhelming and almost impossible to handle.

My friends and family often laugh at me because my planner is my life. I write everything down--it's the only way to handle all the stresses of my life. When I can lay it out and see how I can get from day to day without killing myself it all seems much more bearable. This is the way I handle my stress, and therefore my emotions. Stress for me turns into anxiety, which turns into tears. It seems to be the basis of all my issues. So when I write everything down and put it in a context I am able to handle it better.

Step 3 of handling my emotions is the most necessary, but also what I can handle the most. I'm good at it, as long as I can see the bigger picture and realize that although I'm stressed out now, in 5 weeks it'll all be over and I'll want to be back. So, as I sit in class, trying to keep my head afloat, I must remember to take a breath, write it down and stay calm. It'll all work out--we are all going through the same crazinesses.